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Wednesday, November 03, 2010

A decade

 

I recently realized that I've been writing in my journal consistently for over 10 years.

In March 2000, I picked up my journal, which at the time I kept underneath my mattress, and promised to myself that I would start writing again, and actually keep up (at least once a week).

I've written many times about my journals before, (usually each time I finish one), talking about why I write, what they mean to me, how I use them. I just can't believe so much time has passed. 

So much has happened in 10 years. I went from an underclassmen in high school, to a young adult working and worrying about his IRA.
10 years ago, Backstreet Boys and Britney were at their peak. Pokemon had JUST started to get popular. "Friends" was ruling primetime TV, internet was owned by AOL (dialup), and I had just gotten a Playstation.. 1. (I don't care if this dates me. I'm extremely proud of the time period I experienced my adolescence in.)

10 years ago I just started playing around with my family's camcorder. I was still 2 years away from driving, I just started making Asian friends in school, and I had never had a girl friend.

And now, 9 journals and hundreds of pages later, I've filled in 10 years with...life. Nothing is the same, (as it shouldn't be), and what occurred in all the earlier pages feel more and more distant, and more and more like stories of "someone", removed from myself. Though, I know it was me, at some place and time, writing (much neater back then unfortunately) my experiences and emotions down. And all these have formed and shaped who I am at this moment, typing.

What can I say as someone who has carefully documented my last 10 years of emotions and events?

 

  1. Pain gives great potential for you to do amazing things.
  2. Friends come and go, but it doesn't make any of them less valuable while they were with you.
  3. The same way you embrace joyful and happy moments...embrace the suffering and difficult moments too.
  4. Most of the things that we think are a "big deal" in our daily lives, probably are not.
  5. Our parents are a LOT smarter than we thought.
  6. Everyone should experience heartbreak at some point. I believe it's healthy and part of growing up.
  7. Years really do get shorter and shorter, don't waste them.
  8. ..and contrary to #7... Take your time to figure out yourself and life. There is pressure, but remember #4.

 

I look forward to what the next 10 years will teach me.

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Posted 11/3/2010 11:35 PM by LegendaryPanda84 Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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Good to see you haven't forgotten about your Xanga! Perspective really do change over the years. I want to smack my younger self for complaining so much about mundane things that really are not a big deal. It's pretty interesting to see how we've grown in time. It's a major reason why I'm still writing all these years.
Posted 11/3/2010 11:37 PM by Roadlesstaken Xanga True Member Xanga Lifetime Member - recommend - reply

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i think about that occasionally. how much things have changed with passing time. it's good to see that you've documented it well.
Posted 11/3/2010 11:39 PM by petitetokio Xanga True Member Xanga Premium Member - recommend - reply

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Wow. You have real journals. I used to type my journals. Then came blogs. I wonder if it's too late to start one of those?
Posted 11/3/2010 11:42 PM by forgottenphoenix Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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Crazy. I have notebooks and stuff that I use but they're all over the place. And I only wrote in them when I had to vent. I wish I continued. =(
Posted 11/3/2010 11:45 PM by LiLo_AzN_GirL - recommend - reply

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Wow that's impressive. Always interesting to look back, coz you don't know how much you've accomplished till you actually sit down and think about it.
Just curious though, how often did you/ do you write in your journals?
Posted 11/3/2010 11:47 PM by amzism - recommend - reply

Whoa hey you restarted your entries on my birthday :)
You always think up good ways to express your thoughts
Posted 11/3/2010 11:50 PM by Andy Kwong (site) - recommend - reply

I love your entry and I envy yor for keeping a journal, I should've done it too! :) thanks for sharing! those are precious words my friend!
Posted 11/3/2010 11:55 PM by izabel - recommend - reply

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Are your journal entries and Xanga posts essentially the same thing then? :o
And that's real dedication; I love it! 10 years of writing. Truly awesome.
Posted 11/4/2010 12:01 AM by peteryee - recommend - reply

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that's dedication
Posted 11/4/2010 12:19 AM by tsotofu - recommend - reply

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uh-huh
Agreed. I wish I would've kept with writing in my journal.
Posted 11/4/2010 12:24 AM by sweetxdreamzx - recommend - reply

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My favourite high school English teacher got me started on writing mid-high school, when he made us all write in a journal for the first little bit of every class. Now I can't stop blogging if I tried. Unfortunately (or fortunately..? haha) I've also deleted a lot of it along the way, just because I didn't like the things I wrote about. I don't regret doing that, the deleting it part is part of the history too.

I think your kids would enjoy reading your thoughts, and essentially kind of "grow up with you." Haha, that is, if you intend on sharing these journals with them. =P
Posted 11/4/2010 12:30 AM by anitoos Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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Why does it say "I can't" so pessimistic :P
Posted 11/4/2010 12:44 AM by ch0w Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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Great entry. :) And I'm so glad you didn't forget about Xanga! You have loyal fans here! :) Your blogs are always so thoughtful and inspiring. Please don't ever stop writing.
Posted 11/4/2010 12:45 AM by mZdejavuZ Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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That's really cool. I get distracted from writing in my actual journal. & you sound so mature .. now. haha not in wong fu weekends though! ;D
Posted 11/4/2010 12:50 AM by xchinkylaydee - recommend - reply

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i love this post. and i totally agree with you.
Posted 11/4/2010 1:17 AM by joanne3737 - recommend - reply

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I have so much respect for you.
Posted 11/4/2010 1:36 AM by miZtOkyo - recommend - reply

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hah, that's really weird.. yet awesome at the same time. your handwriting is nearly a carbon-copy of my cousin's. and oddly enough, he also liked to keep journals, and i remember when i was little he'd send me hand-written letters and stuff (all still saved in a little box somewhere, of course).

but anyway, i think it's really amazing that you've diligently kept journals for the past 10 years! as a person that really loves introspection and looking back at things from the past, i have major respect for you haha. for me it kinda sucks 'cause every time something big happens in my life, it happens to be the time when i also neglect xanga, writing, etc :/ i hope your dedication might give me the inspiration i need to kick myself back into the habit again xD (not often you see the phrase written that way, eh?)

-emily
Posted 11/4/2010 2:09 AM by dragonblast2949 - recommend - reply

Wow, inspiring :) I have a journal since I was 6 years old, but I didn't write a lot in it. So there are only some moments of my life in it, but it still shows me how much I've grown up, even though sometimes it doesn't feel like it :P I wonder where we would be in 10 years from now :)
Posted 11/4/2010 3:05 AM by 4tje - recommend - reply

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well said,
our worlds changed based on our perceptions of it
it's ideal not to dwell on anything, rather good or bad b/c "this too will pass"
happy anniversary between you and your thoughts transcribed to physicality
Posted 11/4/2010 4:28 AM by Yohkom Xanga True Member - recommend - reply

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well said! I've never been able to keep up with a journal but looking back at the little that I do have makes me feel the same you do. It all seems so far away doesn't it? Keep it up and things will only get better from here!
Posted 11/4/2010 5:38 AM by sakurastar1020 - recommend - reply

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ever heard the idea that journaling is a way through which you can further develop an understanding of yourself? to practice tapping into your "inner reservoir"? I forget where I heard that though..
Posted 11/4/2010 6:05 AM by younee - recommend - reply

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2 eprops for you. Though I have had a sense from your signature, but I've always wondered how your handwriting looks. Cool, I got my license the same year you got yours. :) Only item in your list I beg to oppose is number 5. They might have had more experience than we did, but they aren't necessarily smarter than we are. Hopefully one day, you can make use of your diaries and share them with your loved ones. :)
Posted 11/4/2010 6:24 AM by lilhkmui - recommend - reply

why can't you normally talk like this lol?
Posted 11/4/2010 6:45 AM by dm - recommend - reply

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my mom would've got mad at me for buying journals of that quality... she would just tell me to use the cheap mead ones @_@ but omgg publish them! i'd totally buy it.
Posted 11/4/2010 8:39 AM by Jieison - recommend - reply

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